Sending them back to chaos

I just don't know. I think I will always start out a BLOG out that way when I am this emotional. Kate and Evan go back to their Mom's today and it just breaks my heart. Prayer is the only thing that is keeping me in one piece right now. I am sending them back to fear, and neglect and there is nothing I can do about it. No judge thinks that the lives of my children are in any grave danger so it is ok to treat them the way their mom and step-dad treats them. I don't think so and neither do my close friends whom I have spoken to this week. I just keep praying the children remember where home is. I pray that they are protected and kept from harm. I pray that their personalities and attitudes are not changed due to the negativity and lack of Christian up bringing they experience there. I you are reading this please pray for my children.

I have written the teachers of K&E letters and am sending them self addressed envelopes for this year. I hope they send us even more than last year. I asked them both to keep their eyes peeled for signs of abuse and neglect. When you are only with your children 6 days a month on average it is hard to know just how they are being treated at their other house. I am glad that E. has Mrs. Clifton this year. Mrs. Clifton was K's teacher last year and had a good amount of knowledge of this problems and I think she will really be able to help him in his second year in second grade.

Church was great today. Having our Adult Bible Fellowship group back in action is such a wonderful thing. We have really missed them over the summer. I hope to get my DH more connected to one or two of the guys in the ABF even if it means getting him a little interested in sports (yuck). Oh what a woman does for love.

I hope to spend the rest of the afternoon in Neverwinter again. Brandon tells me there are 5 chapters in the game and I am only in chapter 3. I didn't think I would like this game but now I have tweaked my character to almost demi-god like status I am quite enjoying myself slaying dragons and orges.

DH starts car pooling tomorrow. That means getting up a whole hour earlier! OUCH. I am not looking forward to that. Well at least I can go back to bed and sleep a little longer. I think I will get out in the garden tomorrow, no excuses. No matter how hot it is I will fix a large bucket of ice water and just stay outside for at least 4 hours. My tan could use some more work and the weeds need to come out. More mulch and lots more fertilizer. I don't think I will be able to show any roses in September like I planned but I can at least give them a fall boost before the cold weather sets in.

I pray your day is blessed!